2010 story

hey people, its been a few years since i open or write anythng new in this blog. i know that i dont have many followers but i believe my blog needs to be updated. so the current year is now 2010. its a new year, new life and a new beginning for alot of things. i am now in college. i have quiet a few friends there. my live is getting better in terms of friends. but for love, yea its still a depressing matter and i dont really want to talk about that. but hey, i'll provide pics for what i had done through out 2010 so just wait yea

junior boards

lost of will

yea...i lost my will to live....imagine....at school my money and all is used just for my friends....just to take care of their feelings...everyday i have to bare with them..their behavior to look down on people..to call names and make stupid jokes...for 5 fucking years i bare with them....just as i thought i found my one true friend...she now ignores me...as she believe that i lied about my sickness...she heard romours from others saying so.....why, why cant she check with me first if that romour was true or not...isntead she ignored me and her mom had to call me and tell me the real situation...i am  a matured man...why would i lie about something that is serious....illness is not a game and so is death....i am depress on both of this situation.....i felt being used and there is nothing i could do...i felt sad, heartbroken on how people could believe some1 else without checking with me...what can i do....instead of relaxing..clearing my mind about my sickness and problems...more and more problems come..please...help me....i am a human being....i cant bare with all this no more....im not a robot..i have feelings.......yes, i am strong...but inside.....inside all strong people....is weak.......pls understand this

hmm

 can honestly say 
you´ve been on my mind 
Since I woke up today, up today 
I look at your photograph all the time 
These memories come back to my life 
And I don´t mind!! 

I remember when we kissed 
I still feel it on my lips 
The time that you danced with me 
With no music playing 
I remember the simple things 
I remember 'till I cry 
But the one thing I wish I'd forget 
The memory I wanna forget 
is goodbye... 

I woke up this morning 
And played our song 
And through my tears I sang along 
I picked up the phone and then 
Put it down 
Cause I know I´m wasting my time 

And I don´t mind 

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up 
With your ring tone 
I hesitate but answer it anyway 
You sound so alone 
And I´m surprised to hear you say 

You used to call me your angel

Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

 miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart will let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

 know you're in a better place yeah
But I wish that I could see your face oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

love..

love is not a game...sometimes pain but mostly happyness...love is not through out a relationship...i just for the start sometimes....basicly care that keeps one another together...love is hard because is not permanent...to keep it is the hard part....there are many types of relationship but there is only one type of love and heart....be honest to a person...be true to the person....teenagers often break up because the didnt understand what is love and not mature enough to understand it....love is

l ast

o nly

v ery

e arly

meaning....it last....but it ends early....very early...thats is y we cant hold on to some1 for a long time....we didnt master the care part...just saying i love u without action is worthless...without saying i love u but giving action...is enough....as people say....an act with no words can say a thousand words....most of people...chase for the pretty ones..or handsome ones....francly speaking..it doesnt make much different....modern world...the pretty ones sometimes are pain in the ass...the think tat they are 'hot' enough......look at a person at their heart of appearance....a guy or girl winning some1s heart is more glorious than a guy winning a pretty girl.....trust me....prety ones when they are old they still will get ugly....

friendss...

these are my friend....from the left is ashiq...me....hakim...zaid...shukri....(school friends) the picture on the top right corner are my yawa friends...(not from school)....seee...they play an important role in me....i love my friends....i dont want to lose them....i treat them as part of a family.....as my school friends...i know them for a long time..we practicly went through alot together..they are like brothers to me...especially zaid..(the one closing his ears)...i am close to him...i mostly tell all my miseries to him...and more personal stuff.....they are a piece of me....