STORY Of MY LIFE

2010 story

2010-09-14T23:56:00.001-07:00

hey people, its been a few years since i open or write anythng new in this blog. i know that i dont have many followers but i believe my blog needs to be updated. so the current year is now 2010. its a new year, new life and a new beginning for alot of things. i am now in college. i have quiet a few friends there. my live is getting better in terms of friends. but for love, yea its still a depressing matter and i dont really want to talk about that. but hey, i'll provide pics for what i had done through out 2010 so just wait yea

2009-06-15T07:06:00.000-07:00

junior boards

2009-06-13T04:20:00.000-07:00

lost of will

2009-01-25T05:05:00.000-08:00

yea...i lost my will to live....imagine....at school my money and all is used just for my friends....just to take care of their feelings...everyday i have to bare with them..their behavior to look down on people..to call names and make stupid jokes...for 5 fucking years i bare with them....just as i thought i found my one true friend...she now ignores me...as she believe that i lied about my sickness...she heard romours from others saying so.....why, why cant she check with me first if that romour was true or not...isntead she ignored me and her mom had to call me and tell me the real situation...i am a matured man...why would i lie about something that is serious....illness is not a game and so is death....i am depress on both of this situation.....i felt being used and there is nothing i could do...i felt sad, heartbroken on how people could believe some1 else without checking with me...what can i do....instead of relaxing..clearing my mind about my sickness and problems...more and more problems come..please...help me....i am a human being....i cant bare with all this no more....im not a robot..i have feelings.......yes, i am strong...but inside.....inside all strong people....is weak.......pls understand this

hmm

2009-01-23T19:36:00.000-08:00

can honestly say
you´ve been on my mind
Since I woke up today, up today
I look at your photograph all the time
These memories come back to my life
And I don´t mind!!

I remember when we kissed
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember 'till I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget
is goodbye...

I woke up this morning
And played our song
And through my tears I sang along
I picked up the phone and then
Put it down
Cause I know I´m wasting my time

And I don´t mind

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up
With your ring tone
I hesitate but answer it anyway
You sound so alone
And I´m surprised to hear you say

You used to call me your angel

Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart will let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

know you're in a better place yeah
But I wish that I could see your face oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

love..

2008-12-26T22:14:00.001-08:00

love is not a game...sometimes pain but mostly happyness...love is not through out a relationship...i just for the start sometimes....basicly care that keeps one another together...love is hard because is not permanent...to keep it is the hard part....there are many types of relationship but there is only one type of love and heart....be honest to a person...be true to the person....teenagers often break up because the didnt understand what is love and not mature enough to understand it....love is

l ast

o nly

v ery

e arly

meaning....it last....but it ends early....very early...thats is y we cant hold on to some1 for a long time....we didnt master the care part...just saying i love u without action is worthless...without saying i love u but giving action...is enough....as people say....an act with no words can say a thousand words....most of people...chase for the pretty ones..or handsome ones....francly speaking..it doesnt make much different....modern world...the pretty ones sometimes are pain in the ass...the think tat they are 'hot' enough......look at a person at their heart of appearance....a guy or girl winning some1s heart is more glorious than a guy winning a pretty girl.....trust me....prety ones when they are old they still will get ugly....

friendss...

2008-12-26T21:52:00.001-08:00

these are my friend....from the left is ashiq...me....hakim...zaid...shukri....(school friends) the picture on the top right corner are my yawa friends...(not from school)....seee...they play an important role in me....i love my friends....i dont want to lose them....i treat them as part of a family.....as my school friends...i know them for a long time..we practicly went through alot together..they are like brothers to me...especially zaid..(the one closing his ears)...i am close to him...i mostly tell all my miseries to him...and more personal stuff.....they are a piece of me....

my song..remixx....

2008-12-26T21:35:00.000-08:00

you and i..

we've been at it so long,

we've still got the strongest fire...

you and i...

we still know how to talk

know how to walk that wire

sometimes i feel that the world is agaisnt me,

the sound of ur voice baby thats what saves me

when we're together i feel so invicible

cause its us agaisnt the world

u and me agaisnt them all

when we're listining to these words

know that we are standing tall

i dont ever see the day that i wont catch u when u fall

us agaisnt the world tonight

there'll be days we be on different sides

but that doesnt last too long

we find ways to get it on track

we know how to turn back on...ooo

Mmmmm
There's so much craziness, surrounding me
There's so much going on, it gets hard to breathe
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me
You make it real for me

When I'm not sure of, my priorities
When I've lost site of, where I'm meant to be
Like holy water, washing over me
You make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak

I'm full of arrogance, and uncertainty
But I can find the words, you teach my heart to speak
You make it real for meee, yeaaa

I guess there's so much more
I have to learn
But if you're here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn
You make it real for me

You make it real for me